Throwing In The Towel 11.13.2014

I don't like to think of myself as a quitter BUT I do know when it's time to move on from something.  Unfortunately, I think that time has already come.  Being an introvert with what I think is really just situational anxiety, being put in situations that make me feel anxious is a bad thing. Sadly, that is how I felt on a daily basis while trying to earn some money with this contracting position.  Basically, my anxiety kicked in every time I sat down at my computer ready to do the work.  I didn't even have to open the program, just sit here and think about getting ready to open it and BAM!  Anxiety attack!  Let's just say, "Ain't nobody got time for that!"  I'm cool, y'all can keep that crazy over there and away from me LOL. I don't do crazy.

I'm actually rather disappointed, not in myself, but more so them.  They painted this beautiful picture of how a contracted worker in my profession is supposed to be treated and I was super excited, thinking I had finally found the right company.  It was going to be great to have the flexibility I needed without all of the restrictions like an employee.  True, there was some flexibility but let the work start to pile up and the nasty emails started, along with basically telling us that we needed to be available at this time or that time.  That wasn't all of it but I won't go into detail because it's really not important.  It is what it is.

Needless to say, I am back to square one but positive that something will come along.  All I know is that it's 43 degrees outside right now and winter hasn't even started so my hope is that I can find something else from home.  I don't mind the cold weather so much as the snow and the black ice on the roads.  That's the part that freaks me out.  The snow is pretty but nobody can drive on black ice, and quite frankly, these folks already drive terribly so I can do without the added dangers of ice patches.

This is day 2 of not dealing with the company and guess what?  No anxiety attacks!  How about that!  I'm sipping on a cup of coffee with butter toffee flavored creamer and just as relaxed as can be.

Have a lovely day.

~Pamela Denise~